Celeb Sightings, Film Sets and Burning Ovaries

Apparently the only way I am going to notice that a celebrity nearby is if I walk in the middle of a TV or movie set.  Yep, so far I have walked through the middle of a filming movie set, a filming TV set and sat next to a celebrity at dinner.  Of course, the only time I knew a celebrity was nearby was when I walked in the middle of the movie and TV sets.  Last Sunday Wes and I decided to have a drink and quesadillas at a Mexican restaurant by our apartment.  We brought out dog, so we sat outside on the long bench.  A couple sits next to us and Fifi says hello, we have a little yada yada chit chat while she pets Fifi for a few minutes.  And then go on and eat our respective meals.  Wes and I leave and as soon as we are out of ear shot Wes says, I know that girl was in the show “Lost”.  Anyhow, he was right.  We were sitting next to Rebecca Mader and chatting with her. She wasn’t a main character but she was on “Lost” – and I should have realized as I was a huge “Lost” fan.  Apparently I am going to have to keep on walking through movie sets as I venture the streets of NYC to actually realize I am in the vicinity of someone famous.  Below is a picture of James Mcavoy on the movie set I walked through:)

Oh yea, and burning ovaries… Today is the 4^th day of Menopur and I’m starting to feel that familiar ovary burning / stretching and growing sensation.  Tomorrow I go in to see what is going on with my e2 and if there really is an follie action going on… Doubtful given it has only been 4 days

FIFI!

Yes, our dogs name is Fifi.  Not the name we would have picked ourselves, but it just fits her.  I can't imagine calling her anything else at this point.  Plus, it probably makes her transition into her new home that much easier. 
Fifi is 5 years old and arrived from the adoption shelter on Sunday, July 15th.  July 15th is officially "Fifi day" :)  She is super sweet and very well mannered.  Here is the picture that was taken at the shelter.  Looking all fancy in her red flower:)

Post time!

So far so good in our new home of NYC.  It’s pretty easy to stay busy in this city.  Plus I have a few friends that still live here that we have spent time with.  One couple is from high school another couple from college.  I also went out to have a drink with an additional college friend that lives here.  In addition, our best friends drove down from Providence, RI last weekend and stayed with us.  They have a 5 month old (which I am a proud Auntie of) baby so it was fantastic getting to finally meet the lil one and hang out with our friends Meridith and Clint! 

TTC talk time – After a well needed TTC break I just found out my insurance does not cover IVF at all.  But it does cover IUI + monitoring and a portion of injections.  I have been paying completely out of pocket until now, so I guess I’ll take what I can get.  However, it looks like we can’t do IVF again unless we take out a loan. However, with my abrupt drop in atrial follicle count who knows if IVf would have worked anyway.   I am just going to stay hopeful for now that moving forward with an injectable cycle will get me knocked up.

Now I wait for CD2.  I took my last Provera today and hope to soon see AF for the last time in the next 10 months.

Oh, and we adopted a 5 year old Shiba Inu dog yesterday!  She’s awesome!  Such a sweetie and really cute!  Her name is Fifi – definitely not the name we would have chosen, but it has been her name her whole life. We thought it best that we just keep her name, plus the name does fit her well.  I’ll post pics tomorrow. xoxo

Moving to NYC part 1

Hello!

Wowzers.  These past few weeks have been crazy busy!  Moving moving moving.. That’s all we’ve been up to.  We first packed up all our stuff from our home in Madison into a Penske truck and drove that down to my parents house outside of Chicago.    Unloaded what we wanted to take with us to NYC onto an ABF trailer truck (pic attached) and then stored the rest of our stuff in my parents garage.  I drove back with Wes to Madison where we camped out on the floor of our living room to enjoy our last night in our first house.  We had to be out of our house the following day so I spent the day cleaning and making our house spick and span for the new owners.  Saying goodbye to our house was heartbreaking.  Standing on our deck, walking around our back yard, closing that front door for the last time, was so much harder than I ever imagined.  I was in my neighbors driveway re-packing my car before heading back to Chicago and I saw the new owners drive up to our old house for their first time, their kid running up to what I still considered our front door, was just too hard to watch.   Wes had to finish up his last week of work in Madison that week so he stayed with a friend while I stayed with my parents. …

On June 27^th we arrived in our new home city of NYC!  Stay tuned with for moving part 2J

My ovaries defied the odds

On Monday night Wes and I had a bit of a cry session about our loss last January and how much these past few months of failed FET's have plain sucked.  I told him that sometimes I need him to just be a cheerleader.  The next morning I woke up to this note (above) that made me smile.  I thought to myself that this was going to be an awesome day!  A few minutes later I hear from my RE and a good day turned bad real fastL  My results came back.   My AMH is .35 (booo!).  No wonder I have stopped responding well to meds.  How does one go from hyperstimming 50 follicles to no follicles?  My fertility plummited in the blink of an eye.... it just stink.  Anyhow, my RE told me that I have to “act fast”…I thought to myself,  isn’t that what I’ve been doing?? 

I need a medication vacation.  It is time to reset, recharge, take a lockerroom break and get back into the ring in July.  Believe it or not, I’m okay with that!  I have been going pretty much non-stop for over a year now.  I need to redirect my focus elsewhere … sure, my thoughts and desire for a baby will no doubt still be lingering in that hopeful to be momma brain of mine.  There is so much that needs to be done for our move that really needs my 100% attention.  Or else we are not going to get from Madison to NYC all in one piece  I am Captain Mover in our family, and I'm okay with that too:)   

 For now this boxer is hanging up those ttc gloves for the next month or so. 

Happy thoughts to all. 

In need of some hope...

Wish I had good news to report but I don’t.   I went in on Monday for my cd12 u/s and there was no growth.  The upped my meds and I came back on Friday and there was still no growth.  The doctors (both came in to look at my ovaries) were shocked. They said, 'these are not the same ovaries we saw hyperstimming 6 months ago. I'm getting my AMH tested. I still only had 2 antral follies swimming around. They said it would be 1 in a million chance that I were into premature menapause, but they just can't rule that out. I get my result back at the end of next week.  (Stacy if you are reading this ,yes, I did copy and paste what I wrote to you via email:)) I am looking very seriously into surrogacy / gestational carrier for my 2 remaining embryo's.

For now I wait and see what my AMH reveals.  But everything that I have read on the internet about a low antral follicle count sure means that I am getting close to menopause. I am only 31!  This is going to be one heck of a long week… In need of some good TTC news. 

Love to all xoxo Becky

Back to life... back to reality....

Remember this song by En Vogue... Love 80's tunes! 

Wes and I had a WONDERFUL time in Chicago.    We spent A LOT of the time walking around  the city.  Ate a ton of yummy food.  Went to the spot where Wes proposed to  me.  And went a Second City comedy show... Definitely recommend the Second City professional show.  Hilarious!   I'm so glad we went.

So, now it's.... back to life... back to reality...

This week has been super crazy... we had an accepted offer on our house last week (the one before fell through which also led to craziness) so we are dealing with all the contingencies from the perspective new buyer.  Including the dreaded inspection.  (I loath ever buying an older home!)

Besides my RE's the rest of my time has been spent at my realtor's office.  2 offices I am super sick of visiting but can't give up on either!

So that wonderful pain that I had been feeling on my right side that I thought was pregnancy related... was definitely not pregnancy related one bit.  It was cyst related.  I went in for an u/s today because of the pain.  There was some fluid around my ovary which they think is from a cyst popping.  And I have another tiny cyst.  They don't think the little <1cm cyst is causing the pain but it's probably the fluid.  Since the size of the cyst was tiny I was told to go continue with my meds.  I am taking Letrozole days 3-7 then 2 vials menopur 7-10. 

Before signing off I want to give a shout out to Nico!  Congratulations to you and your family on your new beautiful addition, baby Cameron!  So happy for you he's absolutely adorable!!!!!!  Love you lots!  xoxo