My ovaries defied the odds

On Monday night Wes and I had a bit of a cry session about our loss last January and how much these past few months of failed FET's have plain sucked.  I told him that sometimes I need him to just be a cheerleader.  The next morning I woke up to this note (above) that made me smile.  I thought to myself that this was going to be an awesome day!  A few minutes later I hear from my RE and a good day turned bad real fastL  My results came back.   My AMH is .35 (booo!).  No wonder I have stopped responding well to meds.  How does one go from hyperstimming 50 follicles to no follicles?  My fertility plummited in the blink of an eye.... it just stink.  Anyhow, my RE told me that I have to “act fast”…I thought to myself,  isn’t that what I’ve been doing?? 

I need a medication vacation.  It is time to reset, recharge, take a lockerroom break and get back into the ring in July.  Believe it or not, I’m okay with that!  I have been going pretty much non-stop for over a year now.  I need to redirect my focus elsewhere … sure, my thoughts and desire for a baby will no doubt still be lingering in that hopeful to be momma brain of mine.  There is so much that needs to be done for our move that really needs my 100% attention.  Or else we are not going to get from Madison to NYC all in one piece  I am Captain Mover in our family, and I'm okay with that too:)   

 For now this boxer is hanging up those ttc gloves for the next month or so. 

Happy thoughts to all. 

In need of some hope...

Wish I had good news to report but I don’t.   I went in on Monday for my cd12 u/s and there was no growth.  The upped my meds and I came back on Friday and there was still no growth.  The doctors (both came in to look at my ovaries) were shocked. They said, 'these are not the same ovaries we saw hyperstimming 6 months ago. I'm getting my AMH tested. I still only had 2 antral follies swimming around. They said it would be 1 in a million chance that I were into premature menapause, but they just can't rule that out. I get my result back at the end of next week.  (Stacy if you are reading this ,yes, I did copy and paste what I wrote to you via email:)) I am looking very seriously into surrogacy / gestational carrier for my 2 remaining embryo's.

For now I wait and see what my AMH reveals.  But everything that I have read on the internet about a low antral follicle count sure means that I am getting close to menopause. I am only 31!  This is going to be one heck of a long week… In need of some good TTC news. 

Love to all xoxo Becky